4 Jul 2014

Rambling Through Parenthood - A Year On

It is exactly a year ago today that I revived my dormant and virtually non-existent rambler's blog and relaunched it in its present avatar. I had decided to be a stay-at-home mother for reasons of the heart. What I had not allowanced for was the solitude it can bring. Enough to cast a shadow of self-doubt on your ability as a parent.

Whoever said parenting was easy had no idea what they were talking about. The joys of looking after a little person so utterly dependent on you are manifold. The associated responsibilities are prodigious. It does not help that the little person you are looking after is a demanding, vocal yet non-verbal being prone to sleeplessness and with a need to be in your presence every waking minute of every day. And night. Especially night.

As I rambled through the feed-nappy-nap cycle for what seemed like eternity, I, like Sheldon Cooper from the Big Bang Theory (series3, episode 14), realised that while my basal ganglia was taken up with the mundane task of cleaning bottoms and wiping drool, my cerebral cortex was free to do its own thinking. It was doing a lot of it without me noticing. It took me a couple of years to sit up and take notice. Once I did, I realised there were ideas there that needed to get out if I was to maintain my sanity. Rambling Through Parenthood was born out of a need to express myself and to find an outlet for the multitude of thoughts that kept swirling around my head like a maelstrom.


A year on, here I am. Still rambling through parenthood. And through the blogosphere. What a ramble that has been! Of ups and downs. Of learning and discovery. Vitally, of friendships and bonding.

It has not all been smooth sailing, far from it. There have been moments of intense self-doubt. Not just about my ability as a blogger but rather ironically, about my ability as a parent.

I have had hopes dashed quicker than it takes to update my twitter feed. I am nowhere near being able to  declare myself 'self-employed'. And I am still waiting for that elusive first win. Even Rafflecopter seems to be conspiring against me, let alone an entire panel of judges.

I am suddenly aware of a whole new world that I previously had no inkling of. SEO, memes, linkys, PRs, social media, blogstats. Strangers from the blogging world that I am trying hard to befriend.

My blogging dark cloud does have a silver lining. It has opened my mind to the limitless possibilities of the written word. It has put me in touch with other like-minded beings, my fellow parent bloggers, an invisible thread linking us together as we navigate the challenging road that is parenthood.

And for the very first time in my life, I am getting to do what I always dreamed of. Write.

I am acutely aware that I am not a patch on some of my more illustrious contemporaries. But I take pleasure in the fact that someone somewhere has taken the time to read what I took the effort to write. Even if it is just that one person. Who knows, they might even leave a comment here someday!


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28 comments:

  1. Popping over from PoCoLo and I'm leaving a comment :) You write beautifully. Blogging is an amazing thing, but it has its ups and downs. I think we all have moments of self-doubt with it - either feeling we're not good enough or wondering why nobody notices us and why all the good stuff goes to others. But it's great to have an outlet to express yourself and it's brilliant to find a community of like-minded people to 'talk' to.

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  2. It is all quite a journey isn't it. But whether blogging or parenting at least you know you are not alone and there's always support out there.

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  3. Blogging has opened my eyes to so many different things - opportunities, ideas, places to go, new friends and so on. I find it awfully hard work at times juggling everything but I wouldn't change it. I am loving my experience and I think it is helping me to grow as a parent and realise when i am having a tough day that there are very few perfect parents out there. And that i am just normal. I am also learning all sorts of new skills - making clothes, designing posters etc. Brilliant post :) #PoCoLo

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  4. I love blogging because it's a great way to get things off your chest and feel connected to other grown ups even if you can't see them in person.

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  5. as lord krishna has said in geeta that one must do known as swakarma one who does it what he likes best will certainly find place in heaven that is the best way to worship god.

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  6. Glad to hear you are back on track with your love of writing. Have a great weekend :) #WotW

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  7. Blogging is such an amazing journey and a great outlet to write and express yourself x

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  8. This is a very well written post! It has a lyrical feel to it, as well as being honest. Don't doubt yourself. Got for it. I love writing too xx #pocolo

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  9. For starters you write beautifully and will gain a lot of followers just from how you write. I've been blogging 6 months and love it so far but there is sooo much i need to learn x

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  10. What a wonderful open and honest post. You write beautifully, happy Blogiversary!
    #PoCoLo

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  11. I think the most important thing is to do what makes you happy. Comparison is the thief of joy x

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  12. Please do not worry about comparing yourself with others. You are you and unique in your own way. Comparison is the thief of joy – Theodore Roosevelt

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  13. I'm leaving a comment :) I think blogging is an amazing opportunity to find your voice and grow in confidence with it!

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  14. I agree with Jen, don't compare yourself to others, Everyone is different and your style of writing is lovely.
    I just blog for me mainly and a record for my girls so not too fussed with all the SEO etc etc

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  15. Beautifully written post. (Especially loved the Sheldon analysis!) #WotW

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  16. A very thoughtful, well written post. We all have moments of doubt as parents and as bloggers. It is easy to let self doubt take over, but you needn't worry, you are doing a great job x

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  17. You really shouldnt compare yourself to others. This is a great post. Just remember why you started blogging in the first place and keep that in mind at all times.

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  18. Such a beautiful written post!
    Just keep doing what you're doing....You are doing a fab job #WotW

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  19. What a lovely post! Happy bloggerversary :-) comparing ourselves as parents, bloggers or any area of life always leads to upset. Best to do your own thing hon, and what a wonderful thing it is #WotW

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  20. Happy blogging anniversary! One year is a great achievement. I too find blogging a comfort in the wilderness years of parenting, and you're doing a great job of writing. Just enjoy it and I think everything else will come.

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  21. Happy Blogaversary.......I think you learn something new from blogging all the time - the learning curve gets shallower as time progresses though

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  22. The most important sentence there is that you are getting to do what you always wanted to do - write. That in itself is brilliant, so leave the self doubt behind and carry on writing - lots of us are enjoying your ramblings!

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  23. I love hearing all about what you get up to at home etc. Isn't is brilliant that people can have the opportunity to write everyday about things that important to them? :)

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  24. Ah what a fab post, I love reading about the ways people start blogging. Happy blogaversary! x x

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  25. Congrats and here to another year of fruitful blogging. So love with Big Bang and you write as geniusly (is there such a word) Sheldon. #wotw

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  26. Well done for reviving your blog, it has obviously brought you lots of happiness.

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  27. Lovely post! I can totally sympathize with you I went from working 12 hours days 6 days a week to becoming a full time stay at home mum at 19 and lost most of my friends. I found that although I was kept busy with the normal tasks of being a mummy I needed something to get my brain working and something for myself and so my blog was born! Your blog looks great you should be really proud of it!

    Jess
    http://owlcrazymummy.blogspot.co.uk

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  28. Happy blogging anniversary!!! You write really well and one thing I've learned is that the blogging world is a wonderful and strange place all at once. And working from home is sometimes even stranger and isolating. I do it a lot and then crave to go into the office to see other humans.

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